I dont really post on here that much anymore. I dont know if anyone from my area really follows me and I cant really afford to offend people publicly. I have done enough damage in the past year in my day to day life, that i dont need to do it on here too. Spoken words are often forgotten, written words are not. I am sure many people can understand this. I wish I had a true escape for what is building up inside. Lately I have just been a ball of crazy emotions. Maybe one day I will find a way to get it all out.